You're probably thinking to yourself, "but wait, don't you have to deal with needles everyday?" Yes. Yes, I do. Funny how life works, isn't it?
They say that when you do an unpleasant task enough times, you become numb to it. I can give myself a shot now and be okay with it, but I think it's because I'm concentrating so hard that I no longer view it as a needle and skin. Luckily, I don't give many shots anymore anyways.
|Infusion set inserter|
|Device for finger prick|
To me, a button insertion is like jumping off a diving board into a pool of freezing water. Once you jump and your feet leave the board, the rest just happens. A manual insertion is like slowly wading into freezing, deep water, you have to commit to it the entire way. More than once when inserting the CGM, I'll stop half way once I feel the initial prick. Bad idea. It's pretty hard to continue once you stop, let me tell you. While the pain is only fleeting, to me it's more psychological, it's knowing that I'm pushing a sharp object through my skin. For some people, this is probably not a big deal at all, but for me, it's taken some getting used to.
|CGM sensor inserter|
The pain is fleeting. I'll get through this. I can do it.
And I always do. I've had my CGM around 6 months and the whole process is just starting to get a little bit easier. I hesitate a little less, I don't hold my breath quite as long in anticipation, I am more confident.
I may not be pushing a button, but I am pushing myself.